Just now mrbf scared me when he suddenly appeared in front of me in his colourful tight boxers. I thought he was naked for 1sec so I reprimanded him.

me: WOI!!!

mrbf: What??

me: I thought you’re naked.

mrbf: Why you scared I naked?!

me: I’m not scared lar. mrfisherman (housemate) is home lar!!

mrbf: He’s not scared of me naked what!

me: -__________-” That means you’re the only neutral party in this apartment who can walk around naked ar??

mrbf: Geng ley! Gheng mei!! (“scared or not” in canto)

me: pbffffttttttt

Then later on, he went to check his personal file (and started to ask a lot of questions about his insurance he bought TWO YEARS AGO. damn cb. So I ignored him after telling him I will discuss it later when we have time **and to stop annoying me**.

mrbf, to mrfisherman: You see lar, it’s true when they say insurance agents always telling ppl to go die. See her cb attitude!

me: cibaiiiiiiiiii you think if you die, I’ll get commission isit?!?!!

mrbf: Then why you keep telling me to godai?

me: CIBAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII~

mrbf, to mrfisherman: Nah nah nah… mrfisherman, when you buy something, you’re king rite? Customer is king rite?

mrfisherman: *non-committal* Canot say is king lar… got some say lar…..

mrbf: *shiny eyes* I wanna know what is RIDERS! Tell me lar….. :D

me: WHICH RIDER YOU WANNA KNOW!!!! Grrrrrr…….!

mrbf: Now don’t need already lar! Ride ride ride…. Tonight I ride you lar.

mrfisherman: LULZ!

me: wtf

Then I was hungry around 11pm, then he said got tofufa inside the fridge.

mrbf: Got tofufa inside the fridge.

me: YAY! *runs to fridge*

mrbf: You want eat my tofu lar….. So nice nice, cold cold. Eat with sugar syrup….

me:

mrbf: So lansi, but still eat my tofu! Nice ley…

me: *ignores*

mrbf: Check my tofu sour already or not. So long nobody touch already…..

me: *starts noming*

*mrbf went to toilet then reappeared wrapped in towel*

mrbf: My tofu not sour ar!??

Always cari pasal and find ways to annoy me one!!!!!!!!

grrrrrr…..i swear my BP went up just now! kns!

I’ve been having nightmares about not passing my exam (coming Sunday, Father’s Day some more!) that I’ve not been able to sleep at proper times.

Two days ago I rolled around in bed until 5am+ then gave up then randomly cleaned stuf in the kitchen (plastic containers that were dusty and discovered to be left on the shelves filled with crumbs and wtf by an irresponsible person!!!!!! *angry*), washed the toilet and bathroom floor, wrote a list of stuf to buy, washed laundry, went downstairs to mini market to buy chicken and groceries, etc etc…

Now, I’m really restless until I heard stomping outside (my room is next to the outdoors carpark) which I thought was pontianaks partying on the zinc roofs. I don’t know why I wasn’t scared and took my glasses to check it out then saw the garbagemen collecting the rubbish then I realised it was so early morning ald damn wtf wtf wtf! T___________T

So, I got up and stared at the mirror, plucked a few stray eyebrow hairs then went to wash laundry (this time mrbf’s). (By now, you shld know and noticed that I tend to wash stuf when I’m stressed or angry. So, if you see my apt extra clean that time, beware!!!)

The past 3-5days, I could feel my breath quicken, chest tighten, stomach in knots and all those annoying irritating disgusting stuf. I hate it! And I’ve been eating and eating and eating a lot more too! But that because I’m PMS-ing also. I wish I get the angry PMS so I can HULKSMASH some (deserving) ppl’s faces in and not just stuf my face with charsiewpaos or what.

Speaking of deserving ppl’s faces…..

Some ppl damn wtf lor. So rude and super cb annoying that you wanna just…… kick their mcb faces into the longkang. They really no brains or what wtf?? Really so rude and say/ask a lot of stupid nonsense stuf/questions their brains too small to filter whether proper or not to say/ask.

I give you some examples. REAL ONES OK!

Example 1:

Random woman (after few mins of random convo): Orh, howl cum yew kenot speek canto veli well arh? Yew knot local meh??

me: Huh? What do you mean by “local”? I’m Malaysian lar. (I was just being a bitch. I alw ask that although I know what they meant)

Idiot woman: Ai meen… yew knot flom Kay-el meh?

me: I’m Sarawakian.

Idiot woman: Orh……….

[awkward silence]

Idiot woman: Urr… Howl long yew staid hare ald?

me: Urm… *thinking* 5 years??

Idiot woman: Butt yew staid hare sow long ald, howl cum steel kenot speek canto?

me: Not many chances to speak lor. Most of my friends speak English to me mar. :)

Rude Idiot woman: Noe wonder(b)rah…… (sounded like it!!) yewr aksent soh diffelenttt…. Sarawakian arh always sound laik duh orang asli there!! :)

me: wtf!! @___________@ urm… there’re no orang asli in Sarawak…..

Rude Idiot woman: No meh!!? Watt arr dos ppl hunting inn duh jungle?? Knot orang asli is watt?????

me: Urm… Sarawakians? Iban, Kelabit, Bidayuh… Now a lot of them no longer stay in the kampung/jungle areas ald. We even have Astros in the longhouses lor….. They build longhouses with cement ald. <____________<

Rude Idiot woman: Orhhh….. yew steel sound laik orang asli lor…

me: Urr… you have a lot of orang asli friends?

Rude Idiot woman: hehehehehe…. no larh…. Juz howl ai imageen dem two sound laik if dey speek engliss lor! hehehehehehehheee…

me: @___________@ (why is me still here? is this twilight zone or candid camera? can i go now?????)

Rude Idiot woman: Den… what dieLEG yew speek at homm?? Watt kind orf cai-nis yew arr?????

me: I’m Hakka. :)

Rude Idiot woman with no fucking brains: ORH ORH ORH!!! I KNOW I KNOW!!!!! Izzit duh food laik dog food one?

me: WTF!!! (IS SHE FOR REAL!!!????!! where she learnt her manners one? from dinosaurs isit?? if i lose my mind now and kicked her face, i think a lot of hakka ppl will forgive me lor!! fucker, u lucky i know i can go to jail if i hulksmash ur face in cbbbbbb…….) Ommnioorengyykyuuuuuuuuuuu~~ *breathe breathe retract hulksmash* Ommnioorengyyykyuuuuuuuuuu~~

Excuse me… I need to go ask my friend something. Bye!! T_________________T (why she said my food like dog food!!!!!! felt like crying!)

note to self to rub Hakka Stewed Pork gently and lovingly at home.

Amazing shit kan? I shit you not!!!!! When I told mrbf, he went wtf and his jaw went ajar. He didn’t even find excuse for her lack of brains lor. (Usually he does. Coz apparently, I’m the bitchy and damn unforgiving impatient one.) Stop testing my patience you fools!!!!!!!!!

How can anyone sane would think that’s a nice way to continue a convo?? Babi.

I feel so kelian lor my culture kena insulted kaw kaw, but I was so shocked dumbfounded I couldn’t muster anything to say to redeem my fellow Hakka ppl and our yummy (misunderstood) food. Sure my ancestors berguling-guling in protest across China and Sarawak liao! T______________T

Not my fault!!! Please go eat all the souls from her food so when she eat it will taste like dog food! Rasakan! grrrrr…..

Gong gong, I will bring back glory to our Hakka ppl this Sunday.

AWL GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!! **GILA STRESS** PLS WISH ME LUCK!! :(

Since I promised my gong gong ald, I must go try study a bit so I won’t bring shame to my Hakka roots. Plus, I kinda forgot the second example I wanted to talk about liao. :(

p/s: btw, i no longer has nails on both toes and fingers coz i peeled them off the past 2wks!! :(

Is this the “new” cynical me? Or is it just reality setting in? Scooping out my optimism for life with glee.

Whenever I feel good about something, there will be 10 different things that I need to worry about later. I know things aren’t meant to be smooth. But a break now and then would be nice.

I need to soldier on. My spirit may be more clouded by the reality of my situation even more than ever, but it shall not dampen me.

I feel less heavy with all that weight ‘coz I know that the current me is more able to tough it out. Not running. Not hiding.

Yes, I will and I must soldier on.

:)

**Do read the wikipage on this lovely fairy tale I always loved as a child on The Steadfast Tin Soldier.

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3***

I wonder what’s for bday dinnar (and if I had to spend it by myself :/)

…and also how chocolatey is the cake!! :D

I shall write down a list for things to do in this lifetime soon and bring home more bacon for the coming year!

YESH!! This kitteh will bring home more bacon. Fatty fatty bacon. yum yum!

Yay me! I ish the best!!!!!

<3

I miss Fey. Really a lot. I miss smoking with her and talking nonsense back when things were kinda simpler. A lot simpler.

New challenges are in store in the form of dreaded Saturday classes. BIGGER STRONGER FASTER hills to climb. I have wobbly legs now. :(

I worry my brains can’t take all the information overload. I might need to upgrade my RAM. But where to get that har??

I also miss the writing process where I can silently curse at the monitor for not showing words as fast as my (fleeting) thoughts. I sure don’t miss my articles (aka press releases) being stolen and tagged with other ppl’s names on the bylines in the newspapers. (DAMN YOU LAZYASS MOFOS SO-CALLED JOURNALISTS!!! DO YOUR OWN WORK!!!!!!)

I miss having the perfect words at the tip of my fingers (and tongue) and not having to resort to the dictionary when I’m *constantly* having kepala jam moments.  There’s so much brain jam in here, y’all can get extra helpings for your bread lar. heh

Feeling the layus.

I miss the excited naeboo. Where art thou?

:(

I don’t know why I even bothered taking their pics lor. Must be too bored. Lagi bored is what I did next… *shy*

Since roaches we call “Xiu Kiong”, I shall name this fella Ah Fatt Gor. After the God of Gamblers. Black and mysterious sial… wahahahaaa.

Can’t see him clearly here coz he was moving too much… rubbing his legs together dontknowwhat lar.. cleaning his toes kot. But look closely can lar see him a bit (the big black dot there).

This pic not clear, but can still see he quite hensem and damn player lar ok. Humsap!

LULZZZ…

Kinda reminded me of that song we sang during Bulan Sabit meetings. Lalat oh lalat~! Kenapa kamu datang~~?!! (I canot remember the next line ald lulz)

I just kept taking the pics of the flies. When I uploaded them into my pc to look through just now macam got story one… hahaaaha

******CENSORED BITCHFIGHT ENSUED******

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(much later…. jeng jeng jengggggggg)

Hmmm.. looks like a relationship to me. heh.

My ms paint skills damn cacat hahaahhahaaa! so ugly the speech bubbles! I made them myself with shapes, lines and eraser. wtf

I can’t believe I spent one full hour doing this nonsense. :I   Although must admit quite power a bit to made up stupid story follow the picture sequence lor… quite power rite? haha :P

Ok. sleepy time! :D

This is not even that funny. heh.